create destroy harmonize

your body is literally on fire inside

buring up the oxygen you suck into your lungs

you didnt actually cut down the trees used to make your house and furniture, 

but you colluded with their demise

Then there's the pyschological liquidation you've done

killing of old beliefs you've outgrown, for instance

I'm not tring to make your feel guilty--just pointing 

out that you have a lot of experience with the positive expressions of destruction.

-Rob Brezsny